love urself
My attempt to write. Lets try
it shouldnt be that tough. its a way of expressing urself after all. all of us express ourselves in strange but natural ways.
what is strange? why do we allow others to define it for us? what is there in this world that seems strange if it is true? if it is true but strange it just means that we havent been in it or around it long enough, hence the feeling. that is why u should never make an assumption or belittle someone saying he is strange. one of my friends used to say 'everyone is someone else's weirdo'. no matter what u do, there will be ppl who cannot accept the fucked up existence of someone else. its their sad story, dont make it urs. unless u want to be a pseudo like them.
what do u want to do? what do u really want to do? i was in discussion with a friend of mine the other day and we were talking about the kid in each one of us who is desperate and tortured day after day because that kid is being denied beyond acceptance levels. look at a kid. what do u see? innocence? freedom? oblivion? silly? sweet? magic? if u ask me they are the only ones who see the world the way its supposed to be. before that innocence is....not killed, i would say, but choked and ordered to stay indoors till he is called for. sometimes we call that kid back, sometimes we forget his existence. but he is waiting for u, for me, for each one of us. after all there is a kid in each one of us. we can do magic. yes, i believe in that. i'm just a fool to continue living like this just because the circumstance put me in it. i have been doing that for too long. school, study well, good marks, good college, placement, climb up the ladder, better job, MONEY...yeah thats the point.
tell me one thing sincerely, did u ever plan out any one of the steps i mentioned above or u just went along the way adjusting to what came ur way rather making the way for urself. do u really love urself? honest question. if u loved somebody would u allow someone to do wrong to him or her. do u feel u are doing the right thing? if u said yes to the first question and yes to the second, stop bluffing urself and say no to one of them. u can never do what u feel is wrong if u love urself. again that is relative. one person is another person weirdo. u define what u like. like a kid laughs at a joke or a joker. do u see how ppl react to kids. they envy them, sometimes they even come to that level and never repent it.
in the bible it is written 'u cannot enter the kingdom of heaven until u are born again' . another 'blessed are the children, the kingdom of heaven is theirs'.
ok i digress.....
we indulge in substances. sometimes we use it, and many times we abuse it. u should know how much ur body can take. ur mind might be ready which is what readies ur body for it. see a person under influence, we say he is not being himself. he is drunk, dont talk to him now. he doesnt know what he is saying. yes, his level of consciousness is not the same or apparently not the same? what do u know? have u spoken to him? it is the same person, same story, different expression. the substance u have consumed does not create words in ur mouth, it does not give u that voice to sing, it does not give u the thoughts u think. they were always there, so why does one apologize for saying something when he or she was drunk or under influence. shit happens i agree....learn to clean it up, so that u can shit all over again ;-)....but seriously would u continue shitting in the same place if u never cleaned it? okay i'll digress again. i know its gross...
i read this 'the road of excessive indulgence is the path to wisdom'. true? i dont know. but i dont agree. wisdom lies in ur ability to free ur mind without the influence. but we are so constrained and restrained by ourselves that we never let that bird to fly free. we are supposed to be mature, grown up, decent...nice but at what cost? is it worth the cost? is it worth living that way? substance helps u to free those chains and fetters tied to ur feet and lets u fly again. and explore those boundaries in ur brain u never knew existed. every substance induces a different chemical in ur brain. which is why each one is a different trip. u should know what u really want to take, its not that u will relate to any substance as long as it is substance. u need to know what it does to ur mind and ur body. foolishness and ignorance is not cool when u are ruining urself. know what u can take and know how to give it back. it is synergy after all. u cannot come without taking, u cannot go without giving. i believe in this. i have fooled myself enough. one of these days i am going to run away. i will come back of course. but i will bring something back for each and every one of us. i will bring ur children back. i will awaken that kid in each one of u. i will be the piper till u become one urself. and then we will have a harmony of mad pipers revelling in the glory that is called life. life is to be lived after all and for me music is life. i want to live it. music is another way u want to express urself, the same way i'm trying to thru this medium. its not the medium but the message that matters, right? its obvious so its a stupid question from my side.
another quote from a person who understod it 'be thee drunk in wine, love or virtue, but be thee drunken always' could be anything that gets u high, but be thee dunken always, in wine, love or virtue. i'm trying to tell u that everything we want to do in life stems from a desire that makes u high. happiness is a high, achievement is a high, thrill, extreme pleasures of body and mind, work is a high. yes my brothers, work is a high. this is coming from a person who has abused his freedom and neglected his work to unfair levels. i feel guilty, but i deserve the guilt so i deserve no pity.
spare the crap. but work is a high. when u come home at the end of the day and u know u have done something worth ur potential and u have acheieved what u could, u are a happy man. u are high even before u take that first sip. u are drunken with the sense of fulfilment. and then u start dreaming again. a man who does not dream is a dead man. because he has no reason to live, he has no reason to look for tomorrow, he has no hope that tomorrow might be a better day, he does not care if today is better than yesterday, because he has no dream. dream, my friends. and be happy living those dreams. do not stop until u achieve the dream and start dreaming again. its how badly u want it. rome was not built in a day. the best way to eat an elephant is to take one bite at a time. no problem is unsurmountable. no obstacle permanent. no impossibility impossible. ask and u shall receive, seek and u shall find, knock and it shall be opened to u...bible again. surprising that i remember so much when i havent been living a religious life for the past god knows maybe 7 yrs now. yes god knows, because somewhere in the corner of my heart i still believe that a god does exist. someone who will take care of us and not let this be a mere waste of time, life and abundance of love. love. simple word. probably one of the easiest 4 letter words. try loving. once. just once. in totality. love urself. if u dont love urself u cannot love anyone else. period.
life depends on the liver, i mean the person living, not ur liver u fool :-) though it does make sense if u are an alcoholic. bitter joke but true.
i want to sing, i want to go on a trip that never ends. i want to keep moving. i want to get my highs. get back what i myself threw away. have u seen my kid anywhere? i know u are smiling rite now......keep smiling, u look better that way. way to go. spread happiness, love. when u get pissed with someone in the office, in traffic, in the hospital, at home, before blowing out, just ask one simple question, does it really matter if i screw this guys happiness. is it worth so much of effort. if it is, go ahead and screw his happiness. sometimes ppl need a piece of sensible mind to be given to them, but if u feel u are going to get a no as an answer to the preceding question, chuck it man. be happy and make him also happy instead. if u dont know what to say, just smile. he's just another human being like u after all. he likes to go out and have a nice time with his friends. he wants to get ahead in life. he also gets the same hunger u feel and the orgasm u go through. learn to love without a reason, learn to love without a purpose, without expecting that person to love u back. and love in a way that u learn to let go. u can never truly love if u cannot let go, when u truly love there is no room for possessiveness. it just happens and u feel free. the world looks beautiful once again. life is as simple as u want it to be, as complex as u make it out to be. life is beautiful.
and my fellow beings, if u think i'm high when i'm writing all this, i dont care, because even if i were high i would have written the same thing. i am making those ends meet now. i'm learning how to set myself free, the high goes but the feeling never does, the learning never does. it remains with u. it permanently alters the circuits in ur brain to look at life the way u always wanted to. i will come back or in terminator style 'i will be back' and that will mark the end of this beginning . it is going to be a long journey. u can join in if u wish. goodbye and godbless.
regards
ian.
it shouldnt be that tough. its a way of expressing urself after all. all of us express ourselves in strange but natural ways.
what is strange? why do we allow others to define it for us? what is there in this world that seems strange if it is true? if it is true but strange it just means that we havent been in it or around it long enough, hence the feeling. that is why u should never make an assumption or belittle someone saying he is strange. one of my friends used to say 'everyone is someone else's weirdo'. no matter what u do, there will be ppl who cannot accept the fucked up existence of someone else. its their sad story, dont make it urs. unless u want to be a pseudo like them.
what do u want to do? what do u really want to do? i was in discussion with a friend of mine the other day and we were talking about the kid in each one of us who is desperate and tortured day after day because that kid is being denied beyond acceptance levels. look at a kid. what do u see? innocence? freedom? oblivion? silly? sweet? magic? if u ask me they are the only ones who see the world the way its supposed to be. before that innocence is....not killed, i would say, but choked and ordered to stay indoors till he is called for. sometimes we call that kid back, sometimes we forget his existence. but he is waiting for u, for me, for each one of us. after all there is a kid in each one of us. we can do magic. yes, i believe in that. i'm just a fool to continue living like this just because the circumstance put me in it. i have been doing that for too long. school, study well, good marks, good college, placement, climb up the ladder, better job, MONEY...yeah thats the point.
tell me one thing sincerely, did u ever plan out any one of the steps i mentioned above or u just went along the way adjusting to what came ur way rather making the way for urself. do u really love urself? honest question. if u loved somebody would u allow someone to do wrong to him or her. do u feel u are doing the right thing? if u said yes to the first question and yes to the second, stop bluffing urself and say no to one of them. u can never do what u feel is wrong if u love urself. again that is relative. one person is another person weirdo. u define what u like. like a kid laughs at a joke or a joker. do u see how ppl react to kids. they envy them, sometimes they even come to that level and never repent it.
in the bible it is written 'u cannot enter the kingdom of heaven until u are born again' . another 'blessed are the children, the kingdom of heaven is theirs'.
ok i digress.....
we indulge in substances. sometimes we use it, and many times we abuse it. u should know how much ur body can take. ur mind might be ready which is what readies ur body for it. see a person under influence, we say he is not being himself. he is drunk, dont talk to him now. he doesnt know what he is saying. yes, his level of consciousness is not the same or apparently not the same? what do u know? have u spoken to him? it is the same person, same story, different expression. the substance u have consumed does not create words in ur mouth, it does not give u that voice to sing, it does not give u the thoughts u think. they were always there, so why does one apologize for saying something when he or she was drunk or under influence. shit happens i agree....learn to clean it up, so that u can shit all over again ;-)....but seriously would u continue shitting in the same place if u never cleaned it? okay i'll digress again. i know its gross...
i read this 'the road of excessive indulgence is the path to wisdom'. true? i dont know. but i dont agree. wisdom lies in ur ability to free ur mind without the influence. but we are so constrained and restrained by ourselves that we never let that bird to fly free. we are supposed to be mature, grown up, decent...nice but at what cost? is it worth the cost? is it worth living that way? substance helps u to free those chains and fetters tied to ur feet and lets u fly again. and explore those boundaries in ur brain u never knew existed. every substance induces a different chemical in ur brain. which is why each one is a different trip. u should know what u really want to take, its not that u will relate to any substance as long as it is substance. u need to know what it does to ur mind and ur body. foolishness and ignorance is not cool when u are ruining urself. know what u can take and know how to give it back. it is synergy after all. u cannot come without taking, u cannot go without giving. i believe in this. i have fooled myself enough. one of these days i am going to run away. i will come back of course. but i will bring something back for each and every one of us. i will bring ur children back. i will awaken that kid in each one of u. i will be the piper till u become one urself. and then we will have a harmony of mad pipers revelling in the glory that is called life. life is to be lived after all and for me music is life. i want to live it. music is another way u want to express urself, the same way i'm trying to thru this medium. its not the medium but the message that matters, right? its obvious so its a stupid question from my side.
another quote from a person who understod it 'be thee drunk in wine, love or virtue, but be thee drunken always' could be anything that gets u high, but be thee dunken always, in wine, love or virtue. i'm trying to tell u that everything we want to do in life stems from a desire that makes u high. happiness is a high, achievement is a high, thrill, extreme pleasures of body and mind, work is a high. yes my brothers, work is a high. this is coming from a person who has abused his freedom and neglected his work to unfair levels. i feel guilty, but i deserve the guilt so i deserve no pity.
spare the crap. but work is a high. when u come home at the end of the day and u know u have done something worth ur potential and u have acheieved what u could, u are a happy man. u are high even before u take that first sip. u are drunken with the sense of fulfilment. and then u start dreaming again. a man who does not dream is a dead man. because he has no reason to live, he has no reason to look for tomorrow, he has no hope that tomorrow might be a better day, he does not care if today is better than yesterday, because he has no dream. dream, my friends. and be happy living those dreams. do not stop until u achieve the dream and start dreaming again. its how badly u want it. rome was not built in a day. the best way to eat an elephant is to take one bite at a time. no problem is unsurmountable. no obstacle permanent. no impossibility impossible. ask and u shall receive, seek and u shall find, knock and it shall be opened to u...bible again. surprising that i remember so much when i havent been living a religious life for the past god knows maybe 7 yrs now. yes god knows, because somewhere in the corner of my heart i still believe that a god does exist. someone who will take care of us and not let this be a mere waste of time, life and abundance of love. love. simple word. probably one of the easiest 4 letter words. try loving. once. just once. in totality. love urself. if u dont love urself u cannot love anyone else. period.
life depends on the liver, i mean the person living, not ur liver u fool :-) though it does make sense if u are an alcoholic. bitter joke but true.
i want to sing, i want to go on a trip that never ends. i want to keep moving. i want to get my highs. get back what i myself threw away. have u seen my kid anywhere? i know u are smiling rite now......keep smiling, u look better that way. way to go. spread happiness, love. when u get pissed with someone in the office, in traffic, in the hospital, at home, before blowing out, just ask one simple question, does it really matter if i screw this guys happiness. is it worth so much of effort. if it is, go ahead and screw his happiness. sometimes ppl need a piece of sensible mind to be given to them, but if u feel u are going to get a no as an answer to the preceding question, chuck it man. be happy and make him also happy instead. if u dont know what to say, just smile. he's just another human being like u after all. he likes to go out and have a nice time with his friends. he wants to get ahead in life. he also gets the same hunger u feel and the orgasm u go through. learn to love without a reason, learn to love without a purpose, without expecting that person to love u back. and love in a way that u learn to let go. u can never truly love if u cannot let go, when u truly love there is no room for possessiveness. it just happens and u feel free. the world looks beautiful once again. life is as simple as u want it to be, as complex as u make it out to be. life is beautiful.
and my fellow beings, if u think i'm high when i'm writing all this, i dont care, because even if i were high i would have written the same thing. i am making those ends meet now. i'm learning how to set myself free, the high goes but the feeling never does, the learning never does. it remains with u. it permanently alters the circuits in ur brain to look at life the way u always wanted to. i will come back or in terminator style 'i will be back' and that will mark the end of this beginning . it is going to be a long journey. u can join in if u wish. goodbye and godbless.
regards
ian.
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