distant soul within

A moment of inaction
A lifetime of regret
A lifetime of inaction
Wondering what to regret

The pain subsides when I covet no hope
With hope is born the pang of a heart
My soul resides in an empty space
That space I yearn for, only to regret

Not having found that space to be
In peace with myself
Not minding the time that passes me by

I crave for that solitude my company begets
I train for tragedy when I find love
My brain melts at my heart’s desire
I wonder why my life’s not on fire

I want to believe when they say
That God is in me and that
I am in God
But who is this God for whom I lust
Who is this God of my pursuit vain?
What for is this struggle within?

Consume me and take me whole
Take my name and return my soul

The grandiosity of my pride
Has given way to a meeker stride
My tyranny of love was nothing but guile
My demons tumble out, I now long
To belong and not to defile

I want an answer
Still searching for the question
The emptiness in my heart I cannot fathom
Is happiness really the point? Or is it peace?
I seek joy in moments of quiet bliss
I learn to let go in order to ‘live’

Look at the leaves
Smile at the sight
Tell me when I’m wrong
I would like to be alright

For I’ve pretended far too long
Cared for all that mattered not at all
I sinned against myself and that distant soul within
I made me wait, I resisted the fight

Cannot take it anymore my friend
Want to go out, want to be well
Help me shrug the apathy away
Help me on my feet again

And I will come your way sometime
To share a moment of gratitude
And make us a time to feel the love
Of nature and its fruits of life
Twill be the gift of my soul
To be with you and be part of your song